Today 5 years ago.

Today, five years ago, I was sat on the same sofa, with different pillows, looking at you. Marvelling at how amazing you are.

Today, five years ago, I wanted to cry. I still do. I want to cry because I have been entrusted to look after you and love you and get through the next five years in as close to one piece as possible. Then we aim for the next five years.

Today, five years ago, I couldn't believe i was a mother. I still can't. I couldn't imagine your future and I still can't.

Five years ago, I didn't know you were going to be stubborn, bright, funny, empathetic, kind, caring, quick to feel, quicker to learn. I didn't know that your smile would brighten more than my life, nor that your laugh would be contagious. I didn't know how much I could love you. Today - I still can't believe how much I love you.

Happy birthday Monkey - you are the coolest, smartest and most bravest five year old I know!!