Disclaimer: This is a "real" post. Please don't be offended or hurt or worried. But, as always, if you want to send coffee and chocolate, message me.
I don't deal well with change.
I am quite spontaneous. I don't follow strict routines. I don't deal well with change.
I'm in a place now where I am happy. 93% of the time I am happy. The other 7% is easily forgotten once it's in the past.
I have my niche. I have my peeps. I have my hangouts. I don't deal well with change.
I'm working through other demons, making peace with things I can't work out, I'm feeling positive.
I am scared that changing things will break the fragile peace I have now.
I have been hiding from it. Avoiding it. Trying to find a way to stop it happening.
And I think that's normal. Unhealthy but normal.
I need to do this. It's about more than me. That's the
It's hard and I am very sure there will be lots of blog fodder as we go further down the track with this. At the moment it's still a bit airy-fairy and hand-wavey, which is why the change isn't defined but it will be eventually... Bear (bare?) with me. And thank you for your supportive comments yesterday. I needed to know that being "real" would be ok.