No there isn't a cute picture coming of some great handcrafted softie... I am after all, handcraft challenged...
The Ugly Green Monster is our old friend Jealousy.
Today he reappeared in my life. Loudly. Annoyingly. And somewhat painfully.
Today I realised I am ridiculously jealous of the fact that other mums have their mums nearby for support. For a quick coffee. To babysit for a few hours. To help with the washing/cooking/baking/kindy-run/troubles.
I watched the lady across the road get back from her day with her grandson (same age as Monkey) and wanted to cry. I saw a mum I know, vaguely, with her mum out for a shopping trip. It physically hurt. And it made me want to smack the woman - she has moaned before about how hard she's finding it... And I have always supported her... But yesterday - I wanted to shake her and say
"You have your mum!! I have to do this alone!!"
Wow, jealousy really brings out the best in me!!
I know that it was our choice to live so far away. I know, that even if we lived in South Africa, we probably wouldn't live in the same town as my mum. But sometimes all I want is to be sitting somewhere with my mum, trying to convince her to give up smoking, chatting about the new book she's reading and drinking a latte!
|Ok - for those of you who were desperate to see a cute green monster...